Saturday, October 23, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Mum's raging hurts alot...
i'd like for you to listen to this while reading, trying to build up the emotion xD so click! just open a new tab for it...
This morning mum took me to school AGAIN and so she gave me another lecture again about taking the late train...
so while i was sitting in the car with my mum and little bro (in the middle of a HUGE) traffic jam, she goes to my little brother, "looks like ur gonna be late" and so he looks upset. Then she turns to me and asks "Dont u feel guilty?" and of course i feel a little guilty, but hey its not my fault she's driving me to school...
So i tell her off saying "well it wasn't me who wanted to drive me to school or drop me off everyday of this week. Ur the one who pulled me out of taking the train and u tell me it's my fault?! I didn't purposely miss my train, i didn't mean to..." and all she gives me is a scoff and then she starts talking about my father and how i must love him and his wife WAYYYYY more, and that's not true, then she yells "IF YOU LOVE THEM SO MUCH, WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO AND LIVE WITH THEM!!!!" and this really hurt me. So she started crying, like she was the only one being hurt, my brother just stayed still while i actually bothered to get her tissues when i was the one who should have been supposedly crying. its just so hard...
ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! this pisses me off!!!!!!!
IT'S SO FRUSTRATING! and that morning i came to school crying and if it weren't for my great friends i would have just been miserable all day...
Thanks guys :)
but yeh and school had its little sorta "fight" between my friends and its just so frustrating. I dont want to sound selfish but it's just so frustrating... i don't want to have anymore fights.... just the day before mum was happy. i wish i could stop time right there where everyone was happy and stay there.
Right now, I hate life...but i gotta stay strong cos i have to look after my brother...
but since i've made this post, i feel and teeny bit better.
And like i said here is a daily post question :D
What do you do when you feel extremely down and want to cheer yourself up?
To me i find this question difficult for my answer: Just think about all the things in the world that make you happy and think of the people in the world that i love.
Sometimes life seems rough, but there's always someone there to lend a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on.
Personally i'd like to thank all my friends who were willing to listen and consoled me. I wouldn't be able to smile today if it weren't for you guys.
And I'm sorry if i hurt you mum.
This morning mum took me to school AGAIN and so she gave me another lecture again about taking the late train...
so while i was sitting in the car with my mum and little bro (in the middle of a HUGE) traffic jam, she goes to my little brother, "looks like ur gonna be late" and so he looks upset. Then she turns to me and asks "Dont u feel guilty?" and of course i feel a little guilty, but hey its not my fault she's driving me to school...
So i tell her off saying "well it wasn't me who wanted to drive me to school or drop me off everyday of this week. Ur the one who pulled me out of taking the train and u tell me it's my fault?! I didn't purposely miss my train, i didn't mean to..." and all she gives me is a scoff and then she starts talking about my father and how i must love him and his wife WAYYYYY more, and that's not true, then she yells "IF YOU LOVE THEM SO MUCH, WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO AND LIVE WITH THEM!!!!" and this really hurt me. So she started crying, like she was the only one being hurt, my brother just stayed still while i actually bothered to get her tissues when i was the one who should have been supposedly crying. its just so hard...
ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! this pisses me off!!!!!!!
IT'S SO FRUSTRATING! and that morning i came to school crying and if it weren't for my great friends i would have just been miserable all day...
Thanks guys :)
but yeh and school had its little sorta "fight" between my friends and its just so frustrating. I dont want to sound selfish but it's just so frustrating... i don't want to have anymore fights.... just the day before mum was happy. i wish i could stop time right there where everyone was happy and stay there.
Right now, I hate life...but i gotta stay strong cos i have to look after my brother...
but since i've made this post, i feel and teeny bit better.
And like i said here is a daily post question :D
What do you do when you feel extremely down and want to cheer yourself up?
To me i find this question difficult for my answer: Just think about all the things in the world that make you happy and think of the people in the world that i love.
Sometimes life seems rough, but there's always someone there to lend a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on.
Personally i'd like to thank all my friends who were willing to listen and consoled me. I wouldn't be able to smile today if it weren't for you guys.
And I'm sorry if i hurt you mum.
Thank you. :)
Monday, October 18, 2010
Sucky day atm T^T
Today i am doing my history assignment T^T which is due TOMORROW! and its to make ur own shield... i'm DOOOOOOOOOOMEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD~~~~~~~~~~
i'll tell u bout my ma:
she's not a very good listener and likes to jump to conclusions about why i MIGHT be angry...
she always thinks she can pin the blame on her to make me feel guilty and when i wanna tell her the reason to why i'm upset she just goes "Am i not being a good mother?" and i tell her thats not why i'm angry and she goes and lists what she should do =="
anyways she's like ignoring me and so i'm giving her the silent treatment too.
So why am i here blogging? well it just hit me last night that typing ur feelings up were really comforting and relieves alot of stress...
well today was quite weird cos it had its ups and downs but during english our class had to read and so my best friend and i were passing notes. Sir caught us and told us to come back during lunch to write lines... but being the idiot i am, i personally like writing lines and so did my bestie. So we decided to have a race! (Y) but sadly sir wasnt in class so we're gonna go back tomorrow...
i just had a great idea! :D
during the end of each post, i will add a question and if you happen to read it answer it. comment or whatever.
So todays question: Have you ever wondered what the world would be if u weren't born?
My answer: For some reason i pictured the world being a LITTLE glum, by world i meant the environment in which i live in. But since my family doesn't know i exist, i guess everything would be ok. Just alittle weird sometimes when i have these thoughts, u know.
Sometimes u never realise the most important things until they're gone.
i'll tell u bout my ma:
she's not a very good listener and likes to jump to conclusions about why i MIGHT be angry...
she always thinks she can pin the blame on her to make me feel guilty and when i wanna tell her the reason to why i'm upset she just goes "Am i not being a good mother?" and i tell her thats not why i'm angry and she goes and lists what she should do =="
anyways she's like ignoring me and so i'm giving her the silent treatment too.
So why am i here blogging? well it just hit me last night that typing ur feelings up were really comforting and relieves alot of stress...
well today was quite weird cos it had its ups and downs but during english our class had to read and so my best friend and i were passing notes. Sir caught us and told us to come back during lunch to write lines... but being the idiot i am, i personally like writing lines and so did my bestie. So we decided to have a race! (Y) but sadly sir wasnt in class so we're gonna go back tomorrow...
i just had a great idea! :D
during the end of each post, i will add a question and if you happen to read it answer it. comment or whatever.
So todays question: Have you ever wondered what the world would be if u weren't born?
My answer: For some reason i pictured the world being a LITTLE glum, by world i meant the environment in which i live in. But since my family doesn't know i exist, i guess everything would be ok. Just alittle weird sometimes when i have these thoughts, u know.
Sometimes u never realise the most important things until they're gone.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
MY BIRTHDAY!~~~~~~ :D
Well today i created an account on blogspot.com and its my birthday so WEEEEEEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~ :D
yesterday i stayed up to 2am just to say thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday via facebook and msn. When i woke up it was 10am so i deided why not sleep more then my bro coomes in and screams HAPPY BIRTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! which scared the living heck outta me. i threw a pillow at him and told him "U KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS?! U CRAZY LITTLE GIRL!?" then it suddenly hit me and i thanked him fo saying happy birthday ^^"
later on that day i walked into the bedroom finding my little brother brushing his hair with a comb... =="
but at 6:30ish we (dad-step mum-gran mama-bro-me) went to a restaurant at cabramatta for a family dinner with angela ying and anthony...
i got a chocolate cake ^^
9:30 came home to mum and she gave me a shirt for my birthday...
after that she told me "oh bev, i'm driving you to school tomorrow and picking u up..." so i asked why and she said "cos u keep taking the late train" and i usually take the late train on wednesdays (which she approves of) and thursday i had to carry laksa for annie so for it to stop spilling i took the late train, and friday i JUSTTTTTTTTTTT missed it by 5cm.
lately she's been pms-ing alot at me and she does it for reasons that dont even exist... on another blog i'll tell u what she pms's about T^T
way to wreck my birthday mum...
yesterday i stayed up to 2am just to say thanks to the people who wished me happy birthday via facebook and msn. When i woke up it was 10am so i deided why not sleep more then my bro coomes in and screams HAPPY BIRTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! which scared the living heck outta me. i threw a pillow at him and told him "U KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS?! U CRAZY LITTLE GIRL!?" then it suddenly hit me and i thanked him fo saying happy birthday ^^"
later on that day i walked into the bedroom finding my little brother brushing his hair with a comb... =="
but at 6:30ish we (dad-step mum-gran mama-bro-me) went to a restaurant at cabramatta for a family dinner with angela ying and anthony...
i got a chocolate cake ^^
9:30 came home to mum and she gave me a shirt for my birthday...
after that she told me "oh bev, i'm driving you to school tomorrow and picking u up..." so i asked why and she said "cos u keep taking the late train" and i usually take the late train on wednesdays (which she approves of) and thursday i had to carry laksa for annie so for it to stop spilling i took the late train, and friday i JUSTTTTTTTTTTT missed it by 5cm.
lately she's been pms-ing alot at me and she does it for reasons that dont even exist... on another blog i'll tell u what she pms's about T^T
way to wreck my birthday mum...
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