Mum's raging hurts alot...

i'd like for you to listen to this while reading, trying to build up the emotion xD so click! just open a new tab for it...

This morning mum took me to school AGAIN and so she gave me another lecture again about taking the late train...
so while i was sitting in the car with my mum and little bro (in the middle of a HUGE) traffic jam, she goes to my little brother, "looks like ur gonna be late" and so he looks upset. Then she turns to me and asks "Dont u feel guilty?" and of course i feel a little guilty, but hey its not my fault she's driving me to school...
So i tell her off saying "well it wasn't me who wanted to drive me to school or drop me off everyday of this week. Ur the one who pulled me out of taking the train and u tell me it's my fault?! I didn't purposely miss my train, i didn't mean to..." and all she gives me is a scoff and then she starts  talking about my father and how i must love him and his wife WAYYYYY more, and that's not true, then she yells "IF YOU LOVE THEM SO MUCH, WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO AND LIVE WITH THEM!!!!" and this really hurt me. So she started crying, like she was the only one being hurt, my brother just stayed still while i actually bothered to get her tissues when i was the one who should have been supposedly crying. its just so hard...
ARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! this pisses me off!!!!!!!
IT'S SO FRUSTRATING! and that morning i came to school crying and if it weren't for my great friends i would have just been miserable all day...
Thanks guys :)
but yeh and school had its little sorta "fight" between my friends and its just so frustrating. I dont want to sound selfish but it's just so frustrating... i don't want to have anymore fights.... just the day before mum was happy. i wish i could stop time right there where everyone was happy and stay there.
Right now, I hate life...but i gotta stay strong cos i have to look after my brother...
but since i've made this post, i feel and teeny bit better.
And like i said here is a daily post question :D

What do you do when you feel extremely down and want to cheer yourself up?

To me i find this question difficult for my answer: Just think about all the things in the world that make you happy and think of the people in the world that i love.

Sometimes life seems rough, but there's always someone there to lend a helping hand and a shoulder to cry on.

Personally i'd like to thank all my friends who were willing to listen and consoled me. I wouldn't be able to smile today if it weren't for you guys.

And I'm sorry if i hurt you mum.

Thank you. :)